So today was my first actual day at my job. The past week I was in training. I can not discuss my job much because of HIPPA laws. But I work in a day rehab for individuals with developmental disorders. So someone could have down syndrome, or be autistic, maybe they have cerebral palsy. They also may have mental health issues as well or not at all. The same individuals will come in everyday. I felt so comfortable there today. The staff members are so lovely, the individuals are so amazing as well. I was kind of on my own today jut because there was so much going on today. So I really got to spend more time with the individuals that come in. I had a 20 min chat with someone about my cats. One who is so shy and does not like new people at all said hi to me and said I looked pretty. Despite some behavioral issues that came up today the day was great.
I felt like I was enough today.
I felt like everyone was glad I was hired, My coworkers are funny and love to joke around. No one is cranky, or mean. There was such a happy vibe in that place today. And I loved every second of it. I felt good to be enough. My most recent ex boyfriend once told me “Perhaps you’re not used to being enough, but you’re enough for me.” Well I wasn’t enough for him but those words always loomed in my head. The idea that I could be enough for someone. I have always brushed it away, but as I clocked out for the day, I felt the words and embarrassed them. I can in fact be enough for something today, and perhaps someday I will be enough for someone. But today was a good day. And i needed a good day.
Trust your heart, its not always lying to you….